Purpose of life: Part 1
Have we wonder what are we looking for in life? We compete, we thrive for the best, we bend around the rules. In the end what will we achieve...
I doubt my all the choice that i've taken now.. What am i doing here? Why do i come here? Am i'm good in science, or i'm more of an artistic person? Should i continue my music n arts? or i Just take whatever that's alreayd pathed in front of me....
Sigh!!!... Choices....
Hmm... and now... i'm again, standiing in front of a crossroad.. with so many choices to pick from.. and so many ppl to avoid, will i make the get the best option...
I came to thiss fucking place alone, without help or whatsoever.. Somaybe when i leave here, i dun need any friends also.. they r just superficial.. will they really help u when u r in need or help? Sometimes, b4 u expect or waiting for help, why dun u really try hard urself... I do.. and the outcome is better than expect.. 3 months... just more stnking 3 months... can i wait? Damn.. i really wanna make the whole world my enemy...
White board
This is the only white board in my room, where ..
It's in a state of dispair.. No one cleaned it after A levels...lol
See the 3 weeks on the right corner? i wrote it lol.. 3 weeks b4 all the stpid A level classes end.. i really hate those lessons.. damn boring, n u r entitled to get a warning letter if u skipped 3 hours of lessons.. WTF!!!
So yeah... anyone wanna try to help out?
Stay in the dark
Sometimes it's better that u dunno the truth than to discover what other ppl did behind ur back
you somehow know what's going on, everyone's talking about it, might strike u at anytime, dodging glances all the way.
*update: This doesn;t have anything to do with JY... SO V dun ASSUME too much!!!.. i dun have so much time to deal with small matter like this...
and talking of this, i have some other major stuffs to attend to
towards the final round of the race
So DSH is on the 4th of sept which means i still got 5 days for it, but too damn lazy to prepare d... No point also , paying so much effort and what u get at the end? self pleasure? lol...
I'm having my own time by lying on my bed staring at the ceiling :D
So after this no more INTEC, and for my practical, i dun think i will be seeing much of some of the people i dun like.. GOSH 2.5 years, n i can bear over it.. damn heck of an achievement !!
And just discovered my purpose of life, i won;t care much about the ppl around me d.. only full of fake hypocrites...
SAy this as selfish, but frm now on, only me for myself!! Who else will care whether u live or die?
Internet Explorer 7 Release Candidate 1 for Windows XP
Finally it's out.. Ie has undergone 3 betas before reaching this state.. sigh finally, i dun need to use beta stuffs anymmore:D
Hey, can i shout again? IT"S OUT~~~!! the newest version... BUt then i still can't wait for vista, though my comp.. sigh, i dun it think it's tuned for it :p
Weekend... KTM, Monorail, Star, Putra n Taxis
So these were the public transports that i took over the weekends, covered almost all of the system in Kl except for the buses..
And what should i say? normal!! hopeless... 1st of all the bus that was suppose to take me to kl wo't do so, coz i think his shift is over, wtf. if dun go dun drive on the road, then me n cy have to go to ktm by paying RM 5 for one taxi... duh !! but luckily this is consider ok d, compare with those bastards waiting at the ktm station waiting to slitt the throats of innocents... But we were lucky, a few mins after we arrived, the commuter also arrived, it didn't stop much , so we sentral wthin 30 mins.. then changed to monorail to go to times square...
Sigh times square= no fun.. selling all those low class clothes.. hhahah only suitable for ah beng n ah lian, n i was lazy to watch any movie too.. so just hang around stopped a few rounds to eat :p
But then the most funny part that happened is when we were leaving.. Cy took the monorail in imbi , which at the moment was full with waiting passangers... hahaha so i decided not to take there, instead i walked to hnag tuah to take the star lrt to go to ampang park.. but guess what , the ticket seller was so impatient and ask e how am i going there, of course using the lrt service.. dman she was like furious n said flash flood how to reach there.. in that case u all should make an announcement 1st.. what the... then ok, went up hang tuah n take the monorail back to sentral... hahhah throughout the whole journey from times squae o hang tuah, a few monorail passed by , but CY never managed to board any lol.. luckily for me a lot of passengers went down at hang tuah, think that they wanna take a transit to star.. hahah wait until they queue up for the tickets n see that hahah they cannot go anywhere....
so in the end i have to wait her at the sentral. courtesy of course:p
y the time we bought the tickets for teh ktn, it was rush hour, so no points going down to the terminal n fight in the crowd.. so again ,we hang out around teh station until 8 pm, where we wnet on our own way.. n here's the stupid part, when i reached SA, i need to take some fucking taxis... and damn them, those bastard should go ot hell, really.. dman them...
n this is th end of a not so fun post.. only idiots will read this...
And this was what V encountered
taken from his blog:
well,i really cant wait to tell the baybeh gang about this story,
even my friend, also cant wait to ask me post it in the blog(he is a blogger too) ,but then after the Johor trip i can hardly to have free time due to the heavy german homework.well,i understand that german lecturer very much since we only have less than two weeks to take our most important exam in our program--DSH(German language exam).so,we must work so hard to improve our german as much as we could ...am i going too far from the main topic??okok,this is the my story then....(be patient lah)last weekend,as every baybeh member knows,we went Johor to meet siew wei,edmund,kah hsiung and a special guest--tiong leh.well,although johor bahru is really sucks but our trip was memorable,fun,and happy( although got one baybeh member ,who was not going, thought that trip was just wasting time his time...),i wonder other baybeh members who did go would tell the others about the trip lah.what i wanna focus on this post is about the last day(sunday)when we came back from johor bahru.well,at first we felt we were lucky coz we were able to catch the 3.30pm bus at the Larkin bus station,and supposingly we would reach Pudu by 8pm...but then, the stupid bus driver has stopped us in a stupid place for almost one hour(the stupid food is damn expensive too),and the stupid highway dun know why suddenly jam also....due to this and that ,we only reached the Pudu at 10.30pm!!!Since bee ean's brother was coming to fetch the others,only me,who stayed in shah alam,had to rush to take the Star LRT at Plaza Rakyat to Bandaraya,then from there,had to switch to KTM to go back shah alam.i had no more time to take my dinner,so i only bought some sausage buns at Pudu(quite delicious also actually,next time i surely will go and buy again) and then ran to take the train,yeah,i ran,not walked...u thought i still had time for me to go shopping is it??well,i thought i was lucky coz i was able to catch the last train to go back Shah Alam at 10.50pm.it's really so late that i could only see few people waiting at the station before the train to Pel.Klang reached.while waiting for the train,i saw a group of teenagers(got 10 person who just around 15yo),i think they were like those uneducated teenagers coz they were so noisy,rude,uncivilized and seemed never took train before(they wanna go kepong central,but then they wait for the train to Pel.Klang which is totally opposite direction---oh my god,their parents and teachers never thought them how to take train meh??)so when they missed the train to go back kepong central,they all seemed like a 5-year-old child who suddenly lost his parents....hahaha so funny!!).....i realized that i shouldn't laugh at them because soon i am going to pay for what i have done....the train finally came(as usual, few minutes late)and i entered the train.i sat on a seat and when i looked out from the window,i found most of the stations were dark coz most of the lights were switched off.At first i didnt realize that this would cause a big problem to me and i keep hearing songs with my mp3.Time passed slowly and i didnt know which station i stopped , as i looked at my watch,it's already 11.40pm , due to my experience,the train should reach shah alam station in about 5more minutes time,so i just sat there and keep staring at the window....suddenly,i saw the Shah Alam signboard just passing my sight.....and then i only realized that the train just passed by Shah Alam station!!!Fxxk!!i missed the shah alam station!oh my fxxcking god,it's inpossible for me to switch to other train to go back coz that's already the LAST train!without thinking too much,i decided to get down the train at the next station,but then the next station was actually quite far,at first i thought i could walk back if the distance was not too long,but then now i only hope i could found a taxi in the next station.when i got down at the next station,which is called Padang Jawa,just like the name,that place was actually a kampung kampung area,no street lights,the road was dark,only around 5 people were at that station,and one thing....there was no any taxi at all.when i asked the people there,they told me it's impossible to get a taxi anymore coz it's already so late....(die lor this time)!!!i felt so helpless and tense,now what could i do is just run,that's really not a safe place coz the road was really so dark,i just keep running to any place which got street lights and cars,with the hope that i could luckily find a taxi...but then i failed of course.i felt so so helpless,and i couldn't call anyone coz my phone was totally out of battery.at that moment onbly i realized that i shouldnt laugh at those uneducated teenagers coz i understood how the 5-year-old child who lost his parents feel now....i keeping running and running,running without any direction,like a mad guy running on the road in the middle of the night....i felt wanna cry already...i thought this time i had to stay overnight beside the road,since i could hardly find any inn or mamak stalls there.....suddenly,i saw a car stopping beside the road,without hesitating,i ran to that car and knocked the car wondow,there is an chinese old man inside(well,i am not telling any ghost story...).at first he thought i was those robbers who pretend like a pity teenager asking for help beside the road, he refused to open the window and asked me to go away,but then this is my only chance to ask for help,so i wonlt go away so easily....!!when i slightly opened his car window...."uncle,are u chinese?"(i talked in chinese of course)"yes,why?""do u know where can i take a taxi?i wanna go back shah alam,because i overslept in the train and i missed that shah alam station."(overslept??i lie of course...or u want me to tell him i missed that station because i was hearing mp3 meh??)"oh,it's to late now,there is no more taxi here...""hah??then uncle where are u going?can u fetch me to somewhere i familiar with?then i can walk back..."(i must ask him to fetch me,without considering whether he is a good or bad guy,coz i have no more choice...)"no,no,no,i just stayed behind here,i just come out to park my car..." (i feel disappointed)"oh...then could u please show me the way to go back shah alam sec 18?i walk back then...""wow,the shah alam is so far from here woh..."(i know lah of course,but what else can i do???)"never mind,just show me..""you walk from here......then....then....""ok,thank you uncle.."although i felt disappointed that he couldn't fetch me,but then now at least i knew the way now,although it's very very far.i just walked heading the way he showed me...after i have walked for about 10minutes,i saw that old man was riding a motorcycle and stopped beside me.."come lah,i fetch u home"THANK GOD!!i felt so so touch that finallygot someone could fetch me home...but then there was a funny thing when he fetched me home,actually he also not familiar with the road in shah alam,so i had to show him the way,but i keep showing him a wrong way home,and along the journey,he kept mumbling that he was tired,just finish working,not enough sleep......and of course he did scold me aslo because i showed him the wrong way,hehe....since he was sending me home,what else can i do?i only kept saying sorry to him for disturbing him loh.....luckily,i reached hostel safely and when i asked him whether i can pay him back for the petrol or not,then he said no need----HOW KIND IS HE!!!when i reached my room,i saw my watch,it's already 12.30am!!god,it took 9 hours for me to come back from johor bahru to my hostel...!!p/s: i am here to say thank you very very much to that kind old man who sent me back,i wish him healthy all the time and have a great sale on his mooncakes in the coming mooncake festival... (he is a mooncake maker)
It's a luxury to choose ur friend
and i could affort to do so? So what!! not happy? then get lost... i dun mix with selfish and dirt lazy pig... n that means lazier than me and only care from himself.. n damn kiasu.. i know whta, also wanna know, i see what also wanna see, i read what also wanna read, i hear what also wanna hear... y dun u just get a life
and 3 days of sucky chinese tea
If based on AYKJ - i'm a hotshot nerd with 598/600 for all my papers, i really pitied klnite for their low taste of chinese tea.. come on , they drink 50 cent ultra low grade tea, which i tasted and can safely say it's read tea after drinking from so mnay diff restaurant for teh past 3 days. and the quality just can't get any lower...
And i have acute bronchitis... RM500down the drain for my medical fees.
And then , i just got myself a new digicam.. Ok i'm not into photographing so RM 899 for a 6.0 MP, 3 x optical zoom olympus FE160 ain't so bad ok?? But if u insist on that it's sux,i dun mind.. just shut up and sponsor me then...
Just call it a day
Was waiting quite patiently for the number 63 bus which will take me back in front of Midvalley, and i consider myself lucky after waiting for 15 mins. As i stepped into the bus, i saw the familiar face which somehow gave me some sort sense of relieve.. He's somehow either an indian or mamak driver whom i always meet when i board the bus...Have to know u r alone when u wait for the bus, cuz u dunno whether it will come or not..
And by the way , Oasis in midvalley offers the best chinese food around kl Yeah!!..lol just the 1st stall on the right... the vege is really savoury...damn it i luv it very much
Apart from that wish to thank CY for accompany me..lol haven't watched movie for a month d... Click is such an engrossing show... frankly saying this is the best film from that sandler guy. At least it provide something new n creative for the comedy and a little bit twist of sad part, haert warming, tears dropping scene to reflect the family values that we should tresure... hahha And i know somebody who sat next to me weeped... lol * wink *
So what ya should do? Just click ur way into the nearest cinema..
Hmm how good will it be if u gave an universak remote control lol
Die!!! death penaLTY FOR SNATCH THIEVES
Malaysia is somehow a fucking paradise for the snatch thieves. it's undisputed that u just can't miss any news everyday without those bastards in action... Come on... where are the fucking policeforce when u need them...
Somehow there are so little reports on any bastard that's successfully been arrested. How many ppl that are going to suffer? Fucker !!and guess who's joobless or too free to become snatch thieves? INdon workers? Paki workers? Bangla workers? or the majority race in this country? The verdict is urs
Is it worth to give people a second chance? Is it easy to forgive and forget?
And what i mean is myself. A few weeks ago, i asked my friend why she entered form 6? and guess what's her answer :
I wanna give myself a second chance...
But forme, i really hit it big time now... I dunno how to say it to myself.. should i give myself another chance? Can i do better this time? Or is it that i need to feed my ego and not about my accomplishment at all?
Damn i hate to be in such a situation...
WHY???!!!!!
Why life should be so full of obstacles, up and down, waves hitting on you constatnly... Fate not happy to see you happy...
Why dun it be just a smooth sail all the time?
Damn!!! Just need something to give vent to... I failed... failed in everything that i've done. fail in life... failed in every aspect...
Why dun i just be satisfy with what i have, and have this type of mindset:
I'm now in trouble but i should be F*u*c*king thankful coz other ppl would be in a worse situation than me..
NO !!! that's not me... not me at all.. and that thought is for losers who will never accomplish anything in their life... NO!!!!
Why everyone needs expectation? WHy? y i succumbed to such failure.. why... coz i will never grow up if i always win?
Dammit . not happy coz i can lan si is it? so what...then payme back in such a way... fuck everyone ...
damn...
what am i doing here
My new german lecturer entered the classroom for the 1st time today.. n at the age of 35 he's having a considerable serious hairlost problem. I think all german guys face this problem. Ok he's a good guy.. but toobad he dunno how to teach... too slow~~.. not that slow.. just slow~~ for poor student.. sigh dunno how to explain.. if the condition goes on i think our class will be a sinking ship.
oh yeah real matter , my ka jie yesterday asked me to write a bout some interesting post , some advice from us , who consider ourself as the "old generation"
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Not having sex b4 marriage is not uncool or old fashioned...
sigh this have to come out from the mouth of ppl like me...
Coz again "her friend" is facing this problem to accept a guy who has fucked b4... + did oral sex in the package.
So i think until now... 99% of my friends are still virgin... correct me.. So it depends on the people you hang out... but i dun think there's anything wrong in sex b4 marriage.. you dun tell he/she dun tell, who knows..
Then what caught my attention is that ka jie said putting that "thing" in ur mouth and got all those semen in your mouth is lie eating shit... hahah damn funny.. i dunno how it feels like, you tell me..
y ppl fuck? coz it's fun lol... curious guys like to venture to area that no other peers have step foot in b4... n gals, i guess is mostly been coaxed by the partner to engage in it... Do tehy really wanna do it? how teh heck i know...
so i'm writting this bunch of rubbish just to make my ka jie happy.. coz i dun have any experience... sex is fun, you tell me... it's good for health too... but like my other friend said a hk guy... masturbate 20+ times in 1 shot.. n guess what got his tank empty... he was afarid so he asked for opinion.. n the news just spread out like that.. what a loser.. find a proper gal to fuck with la... soo humilating...
Hey, to the aussie and teh newzealander who always patronize my site, can you kindly identify urself? i'm kinda curious
So people come people go, there's no big deal about it.. we meet new people
everyday... some are just passer-bys in your life, some leave permanent
footsteps in your life.. Anyhow this is what we shoould get use to...In turn is
what we gain from the meetings and the leavings? is it some nice memories that
are worth to cherish forever or just something that leave a bad taste in our
life.. It depends... lol
Just appreciate the time together, as we might not have the same
opportunities again.
So Cy like this part.. actually i planned to eleborate more but was dman lazy that day.. So this is the part II about my feeling about parting.
The most interesting part of life is that u can encounter new person everyday... we cross path with strangers everyday.. some with fair skin, some dark skin, some pretty some yong sui... we gain new friends, we loose some friends, we gain enemies.. life goes on, who cares.
the difficult part of parting ( hahah it rhymes ) is we got attached to something too much that we can afford to lose it.
Have u ever noticed something? It's hard to gain something but it's even harder to let it go...
how many "hellos" that we can utter per day. how many "goodbyes" that we can speak out? but sometimes, those are the last time that we can wish someone... maybe we r the one that's gonna part with this world.. a piano might fell down from the sky when we step our from our door.. a 16 wheels trailer might drag us 120km on the road...
It 's not those that's important.. it's how we treat life n everything around it... we can be immortalized , leaving a permanent mark in somebody's life eventhough we are gone... like bullshitting all around, kill his/her own family n leave him/er there to remember u..
So saying goodbye is not that hard anyway... good bye.. but the difficult part is whether we can let go or not...
next time when u see a clinic with a big red crescent , plz do not enter.. Cause it's 100% owned by m doc(s).
I tried to avoid seeking treatment from m doc(s) coz of they disputed ability. So i remembered there's a clinic that sounds like an owned by an indian doc.. the name is like mediviron.. Come one... 1st glance anyone will also think it's an indian clinic...
But see closely it's a combination of 2 words.. medi for medic.. viron =virus?? And i thought i am lucky to find one such clinic in shah alam sec 18 which is not owned by m doc(s).. And guess what, the 1st step i lay my foot in it.. i was like damn it how come there r so many malay workers like 5 ... doing nothing but chatting on the counter.. i sensed something amiss.. so i looked at the panel... My god.. all 3 docs are malays... I'm dead meat...
And yeah so next time choose red cross or for god sake the red diamond.. n never never enter clinics with a name that confuse people... red crescent.. duh... what .. u really wanna know what the crescent means? it's a symbol for islam.. ... and they provide cheap malaysian pharmaceutical made medicine...
They say man can live a few days without food and water but only can survive a few minutes without air.
So i'm typing this because i might die at any moment. My breathing problem occurs again. NOw i dunno what to do... Since all the skull heads malay docs in Shah alam do not qualify to treat me. Even got one doc came out with this theory that the gas in my stomach compress my lungs therefore i'm choking inside.. and thus gave me some so call malaysian made cheap ultracarbon... Damn i'm still feeling the same... Hopefully i can still survive until next week b4 my parents bring me to see some specialists.
And talking of the people who care about me.. I'm sorry all this while, coz i'm ultra egoistic then i shunned off them all thetime.. Really, i cannot be cured ... See even the big fsh started to get along with other ppl again.. And i'm still--- the old me + a whole lot ego to feed on...
See my parents try to give everything that i wanted, they r the best... n sometimes i just hung off the phone whenever i dun like them nagging me on it... sigh old habits die hard... It's just that ... hmm i dunno what to say...
Post #101
So 100 posts within 4 months quite an accomplishment
I thought wanna come out with a better article for the 100th post but somehow, I crapped about core 2 duo....
So my german lecturer is leaving,too bad T.T she's just simply so nice....
So for our Abschiedsparty (leaving party) , we went to sunway pryramid and that was my idea too..
Instead of eating whatever KFC, comeone plz ... Some skull head even came out with the idea of eating KFC in sunway... sigh .. y KFC? No much creativity is it? and the present they all bought for her.. sigh ... no comment...
yala.. i dunno y ppl tend to follow each other.. i wrote a few mandarin words on the card,.. then got ppl follow me also... get a life...the last one actually followed because of kiasuness... hanging out with this type of ppl sure make me sick...
So people come people go, there's no big deal about it.. we meet new people everyday... some are just passer-bys in your life, some leave permanent footsteps in your life.. Anyhow this is what we shoould get use to...In turn is what we gain from the meetings and the leavings? is it some nice memories that are worth to cherish forever or just something that leave a bad taste in our life.. It depends... lol
Just appreciate the time together, as we might not have the same opportunities again.
Nah, this is supposed to be the best desktop processor that has just been released.
The performance is improved by 40% , 40% more energy efficient than it's predecessor...
What do you have to say?
Mac OS leopard is gonna release soon too... wow so many tech updates...Hey i wanna be apart of it..
So anyone wanna sponsor me a new laptop? Vista included next year? lol
Enemy who doesn't kill you , will make you stronger
hmmm... just a thought . any idiot would like to let their nemesis go off alive and unharm?
Read jhan yhan's post on puntuality and wish to comment a few things about it.
Malaysian s are damn freaking slow.. just plain slow ~~ and their concept of time management is ....
TOTALLY VAIN...
Dun ever mention about puntuality in front of a typical MALAYsian... Coz they won;t understand what's it.. They will shrug ur question off and make u look like an idiot from god-knows-where...
And what made my blood boiled that my friend said accept it , it's our culture... what the i really really wanna slam him on the wall already... What culture... Being unpunctual = Totally, miserably RUDE... And i have no doubt MALAYsian is one of the rudest citizens in teh world.. Come on accept the fact.. We sux... BIG TIME... and there's no point of denying it...
Quitely accept it and go on with life... like what WE NORMALLY do... classisify every bad REMARK as "sensitive" issue.. and there !! we got it.. we can just avoid discussing about it and sweep it under the carpet ... This what we are good at right?
DAmn.. y can;t everyone be punctual a bt? as if come early 10 to 5 mins can cost you ur life... And as if u can do MORE important stuffs in that time span.. Coz what.. MALAYsian are practically SLOW~~ ...
Let's all take a vote right now to wipe your country off the map
already and build an amusement park out of the whole thing and call it a day
-Iron man to the delegates of Latveria
Wonder what will happen if Israel state this out to Palestine and Lebanon... Will be quite a show... Since Palestine is not a sovereign country and it's not supposed to be on the map also, returned the jews what they own..
What's the big deal about hanging out in mamk stall? Been in Shah Alam for more than 2 years and so many mamak stalls surrounding this place, it's a total hell..
Come on, mamak stall is no where near cool.. They suck... the food are cheap.. not cheap in money-wise, low quality i mean... Black ppl serving low class food... Want huge TV go n buy one urself!!!
Come on, fucking fried rice plus chicken = Rm 5? the malay won;t even slit ur throat like that.. It's no savoury also btw...
The waiters r all dark n dirty.. They never wash their hands after coming out from the toilet.. They dun speak proper malay nor any recognised language in malay... They r immigrants... They come from pakistan, bangl all those place... They are like zombies, always serve you with the wrong food...
Damn... i still dun like them... they sux... zombie ppl... smile when recieving the money.. can only see thr teeth in the dark... Go back home laa... mamak .. wtf...! low class pl only patronize it.. CHEAP!!! lousy!!! stupid !! mamak , mamak your head laa
