Have been lazing around although it's exam season, just dun have the "x factor" of being productive.. Say there's some bunch of books waiting for me at the side... There's also 2 buckets of clothes waiting for me at the other side of the toilet... What the... And yes, I do my own laudry, ialso iron my own clothes.. is it a crime? Hoohoo wait until u see me how i forgot to adjust the thermostat on my iron n melt the threads on my clothes....Ok no more for the update on my life.. serious matter bellow:

In this time and age, just mimicking my friend's essay, come on laa.. so lame.. n yeah he does come from the 80's.. What an amateurish "opening"... lol... i dun say that my english is so good.. but i think its just above average... better than most ppl.. but there r still many ppl outside who's better than me... Just a few example ==>MENJ....

Talking abut that guy... For the past few days.. all those blog hotshot like minishorts .. n otto from the nude not naked fame etc.. have been dropping bombs on that guy... And y? He's an islamic extremist... Found out from casper he was also being blocked from recom... Oh yeah that guy as a malay.. did surprised me with his usage of english.. at least it's better than mine.. lol...

So change topic.. i dun even know who the fuck is MENJ... So many things happened within these few days that made change some concepts on certain issues...

Issue like helping people...
All those lil stuffs that you think don't matter but they do ...

Wonder how a lil smile can brighten up ur day?
Wonder how some encouragement can keep you moving on?
Wonder how some smaal gift can make up ur day?

They r just some lil boost to our daily routine..

*flashback 1 week ago during my german exam...

BK n Dr.L each argued and they prepared different set of german exam papers... So every student under each lecturer needed to take their paper at different venues.. So their were some mix up n Dr L 's student some enteredour exam hall...So the black guy entered our place too coz he woke up late that day.. i was sitting in front n he entered from behind.. so i showed some gesture to him that he entered the wrong class, and i got some blast from Bk although the exam haven;t started .. What the heck... OK... i dun take it seriously n forgot it after 5 mins.. ok.. so the exam lasted for 3 hours... after that went home.. n guess what.. there was a mosquito repellent on my bed (i asked him a few days b4 for it coz i wanna borrow)... n there was a sms on my phone.. from the black guy.. apologizing cause i got scolded for him... Ok it was a surprise... I'm glad indeed.. but i view that wasn;t neccesary... Just dunno y... it was just a spontanoeus reaction to help him in the morning ... n i never expect a scolding from BK also.. even in that case.. i ever expected a gift out of it... For me it's just a small matter... And i never expected the black guy will appreciate it so much....

Ok that was a story... here's another one...
*flashback 3 weeks ago, after the war for the router...

So we were in the black guy's room.. questioning him y he sudden;y showed some violence in front of teh big fish... the loud mouth was there.. giving his long wind impractical hypocritical lecture , then he recieved his call from some guy called victor , who is also a devil himself, asking him for his car.... victor said his gf was sick n needed to borrow the car from the loud mouth...but the loud mouth rejected , (of course who wanna lend a not so close guy his car).. but he offered that he will drive them to teh hospital if he really needs it.. so blah blah the loud mouth keep explaining to us that he himself dun like victor too .. n yada yada... he help becoz this will make HE HIMSELF fell good...

Ok end of story... i wanna explain something on this.. come on laa.. only selfish ppl will say like that... We help others so that we ourselves can feel good? This is just so wrong... That means the true meaning of HELPING OTHER PPL is already being tainted... We help cause we really want to.. n it's te right thing to do... and we dun hope for redemption at the end... But i think we have the rights to ask for their help if we need to... Do we?

I really dunno how to say.. We r living in this sick materialistic world... Sometimes, when we ask for help there's no one around to help u... So how close are we to being a human? Even animals help themselves out... And sometimes i can't even sense the sincerity of helping ppl... Is it the HELPING that's important or is it the SINCERITY? Can someone tell me...

posted by Angelus @ 9:00 PM