We're never lack of Love
What is love? Is it a feeling that makes you feel good? Bareness of the chest? Ease of thought and speech? Is love acceptance and forgivence? Love to me is all the above and complete tolerance towards oneself. Love is taking one step at the time, knowing when its best to act for yourself and others. Love is knowing the right things to say, and knowing the right things to do.
So are you lack of love? Do you claim to be ignored and things are just not going the way it should be? Perhaps you've been pushing yourself too hard. It's pointless to push things further than where they should be. Sometimes force doesn't necessarily get rid of the resistance. To rid internal resistance, you will need careful understanding of your body and its tolarance and its capacity so you can increase your capacity everyday.
Sometimes you will feel like it's impossible for some people to understand you, but you have to understand yourself first. You create the opportunities to be loved and to have a beautiful life. If you're open to new experiences and learning new things, things will be coming your way. When an old chapter of your life does not close, you'll never move forward no matter how hard you try. So step back when you think that you don't feel love and things don't go the way they are. Feel the love that life has to offer. You can only feel Love when you're willing to feel loved. So when you want to find love, feel loved as life is truly a blessing and love is all around whenever there is life. The simplest example is the love of a mother for a child. Every mother loves their child and so you've one more person that cares and loves you.
Most things in the world are motivated by Love and care for another human being. Why are storybooks being written? The author wrote them to share the joy of his imagination with everyone else. It's completely alike for other texts, Physics, Biology, Chemistry, religious texts and so on. They're made because somebody cares enough to pass on the knowledge and life that comes with the object of love they're sharing. So you're never lack of love. Everything is made with careful detail and with dedication. Things like computers and programs are created out of the love of people to create new things to benefit others and make knowledge more accessible. The least you could do with so many objects of love and devotion around is to appreciate them and feel the love they were made from and to always look at the bright side of life.
You create your own destiny. If you believe that life is a tasty candy, it would be that. Feel the love as the world is never lack of love. Why worry, why be sad, why be angry when there are other better things in the world created out of love. Be caring, be nice and appreciate what you have in life, and lastly think of how you can make your life more interesting and better, and the type of things you would love to read or do. And if you ask me if I do care for you, I do.
Good night =) I'll be writing nightly from today.
The way home
Luckily i could end my class b4 11am, coz i know there r buses back home at 11.30
I was very eager to get back asap coz y even the stupid pratcial at gmi made me so TENSION becoz of just a guy,.. damn ... i never feel so challenged b4.. damn get a break n get a life, man... ur sick
SO on teh way home, the bus got its tyre punctured just after an hour of journey... SO damn funny that initially there was an explosion, n they driver couldn't steer properly and the bus like moving left n right, and some weird sound coming form the back, so he had to stop it at the side and checked on it... bla... what can they do in the middle of teh highway, so after a 30 mins of delay, he still had to drive it slowly until the next tol plaza and called for a reinforcement... so a theory.. a normal bus with 8 tyres.. 4 at the front n 4 at the read, still could proceed with 7 tyres.. guess what will happen if 1 of the tyres at the front n 1 at the read exploded?
and i dunno what's wrong about the 2nd bus... it crawled up the hill, meaning the driver drove it very slowly up a not so steep hill... wtf... i dunno whether the bus got prob, or he's the one.. sigh.. so guess how long the journey costed me? 9 hours of back breaking bus ride:p
and yeah i finally bought 2 jeans for myself.. for those ppl outside there, there's a trivia for u all... what's the last time u saw me wearing jeans?
I'm home
Back again after 2 weeks, 1stly becoz it's fasting month and i can;t get food in my place
2ndly coz i need internet connection..
damn tired after the 9 hours trip. dull detail tomorrow
2nd last day
I dun wanna go back to SA.. such a nightmare damn it ... back to that place... so Dr.L is gonna give me a digicam... YIPPE!!! ... but then sigh... nothing d..
Another digi cam :p what the heck lol
See dai kajie also msg me coz she's bored :p
what astupid post.. better dun waste my time posting it
Evil that men do
The title is based on the comic book by marvel : Spiderman and black cat the evil that men do... somehow after reading this and what my dai ka jie mentioned earlier they really reflect what is happening in our real life.
So this post will be divided into 2 sections. One about the comic and another one what my dai ka jie asked me to blog about.
Comic part : Source wikipedia n my own reading
Spider-Man/Black Cat: The Evil That Men Do is a six-issue comic book limited series published by Marvel Comics starring the superhero Spider-Man and his ally, the cat burglar known as the Black Cat.
Writer/director Kevin Smith began writing the Spider-Man/Black Cat: The Evil That Men Do limited series in 2002. After the third issue, the series went on a hiatus until 2005, when Smith revealed he had finally finished writing the scripts. The delay caused Smith to be heavily criticised, being considered both lazy and unethical for having been paid for something he had failed to deliver. However, in January 2006 Smith revealed that due to his own failure to submit the relevant paperwork, Marvel's then-newly computerized system for paying writers for their scripts had not created the relevant cheque. Due to Smith's failure to discover this until after the completion of the series, he did not in fact receive any payment at all for his work until it had been finished; The series is also criticized for the fact that the second half becomes a story revolving around homosexual, incestuous rape which many felt to be disturbing, preachy, and ill-fitting as a Spider-Man story and completely out of step with the previous half, which had been closer in tone to an old Hollywood romantic action-comedy, with the art, fonts, and color-scheme clearly designed to reflect this.
Plot :
The Black Cat, the former lover of Spider-Man, returns to New York City.
#1 - "The Evil That Men Do"Spider-Man is looking for a missing woman named Tricia and investigating the death of Donald Philips. Philips was an honor roll student who died from a heroin overdose, despite a lack of evidence that he had ever used heroin. The drug dealer, when confronted by Spider-Man, reveals a certain actor who likes boys and a man called Mister Brownstone. Felicia Hardy goes out in her Black Cat outfit. Spider-Man overhears Hunter Todd make a phone call to a Mister Brownstone. From across the street, the Black Cat sees a dark figure snooping and decides to move in closer. She swings across the street and she sees it's Spider-Man. Together, they crash through the window. Spider-Man wants to know about Donald, Cat, about Tricia. As Hunter starts talking, his girlfriend dies of a drug overdose. Then they hear a voice from the phone that fell on the floor. The man on the phone's name is Mister Brownstone.
#2 - "A Ruse By Any Other Name..."A man named "Garrison Klum" turns off a cellular phone and enters a stage at Carnegie Hall. Spider-Man and Black Cat start arguing. She leaves, and the two play a game of cat-and-mouse while swinging around New York City. At Carnegie Hall, Scorpia, a woman dressed as a scorpion, crashes the reception looking for Klum. Spider-Man and Black Cat arrive and start fighting. During the fight, Black Cat pulls Scorpia to the edge of a window, accidentally rips her tail off and falls, but is saved by Spider-Man. After returning inside, they hand Scorpia over to the police. Klum poses with Spider-Man and Black cat for the cameras. After hearing him speak, Spider-Man suspects that Klum is Mister Brownstone. Then he meets a guy name "Pavan". As Spider-Man was busy, he asked Pavan to do the work.
3 - "Hate Crimes"With Scorpia in prison, Spider-Man and Black Cat learn that she was hired by a Alberto Ortega, the head of a local drug syndicate, to assassinate Klum. However, Klum gets to the Ortegas first, causing them all to fatally overdose on heroin through mysterious means. Spider-Man and Black Cat discover this, leading to a disagreement on how to deal with the situation. Black Cat restrains Spider-Man with the use of his webshooters, and then goes after Klum on her own. Confronting Klum in his apartment, Black Cat discovers that Klum is a low-level teleporter, which allows him to transport small objects. Klum uses his abilities to put heroin into Black Cat's system, leaving her helpless. He pulls out a pocket knife and proceeds to cut off her costume...
Ok the rape part starts here.. what the heck.. teh black cat was raped... shit
#4 - "A Study in Scarlet"Garrison Klum is dead. Felicia Hardy waits in prison at Ryker's Island, accused of his murder. Matt Murdock, also known as Daredevil, is chosen to represent her at the trial, and is trying to convince her to submit to a physical examination to prove that she was sexually assaulted by Klum in the previous issue. If she was indeed raped, they could plead self-defense, although Felicia continues to deny it. Spider-Man and Daredevil are still convinced of her innocence and decide to break her out of prison, although someone has beaten them to the punch: Francis Klum, Garrison Klum's lackey and younger brother. Francis has some powers of his own, using his mental powers to force Spider-Man and Daredevil to fight each other, before teleporting himself and Felicia away.
#5 - "Trickle Down"As Spider-Man and Daredevil leave Ryker's Island, Francis Klum explains his history with Garrison to Black Cat. As it turns out, Francis was consistently raped by his older brother and forced to take part in his crimes, allowing Garrison to climb up the drug trade ladder. As it also turns out, Francis was the one responsible for murdering Garrison, teleporting himself inside Garrison and exploding him from the inside out, saving the Black Cat from being raped and murdered. Black Cat attempts to convince Francis to turn himself in. Conversely, Felicia reveals at the very end of the issue that she herself is a victim of rape.
#6 - "One in Four"While Black Cat attempts to get Francis to turn himself in to the authorities, she tells the story of her sexual assault and how she became Black Cat. In flashbacks, Felicia was a freshman student at Empire State University who had a boyfriend who date raped her in his dorm room. Not reporting the incident to authorities and refusing to become "just another statistic," she trains in fighting techniques, intent on revenge on her attacker. However, her attacker ended up dying in a car accident before she could take her revenge. Feeling reckless, she developed an interest in thievery, following in the footsteps of her catburglar father. Back in the present, Black Cat reveals that she was able to trust people again after meeting Spider-Man, almost convincing Francis. However, Spider-Man and Daredevil arrive, misinterpreting the situation and a fight ensues. Francis falls from a great height but teleports away before hitting the water. As the issue ends, a disfigured Francis swears his revenge on Spider-Man, enlisting the aid of the The Kingpin, who sells him the suit formerly worn by Mysterio...
Second part:
the day when dai ka jie arrived in kl, while i'm jsut about to leave KL... see!!.. damn fate!!
so she had to persuade her parents to let her to come alone since there are too many fuckers idiots babarians running around malaysian WHICH ( supposed to be who but i view them as rubbish, so which is approperiate here) hunts on unarmed ppl... damn !! Ths is what happening to our society... we hurt each other for what... so we gain pleasure in it? I think that's the only reason for it... rapist ... fathers bang their own daughter? like what is shown on the news moments ago? even my house is on heavy locks... shitty criminals... ur mother asked you to study hard u dun want... and u take pride on becoming a serial murderer? this apply to the guards in y hostel.. keeping a keen eye on scholars...coz they have nothing else better to do damn i hate ppl who never listened to their mothers?
So we hardly trust each othr anymore...y coz those bastards running aaround like mad men...it's really unsafe now.. since not much steps have been taken..lil gal shouldn't wondering around in the dark.
Just call it a day
I need to zzz more... n i hate monday.. went to the immgration office n waited stupidly for an hour b4 they mentioned that i 'm not elligible for the students discount on the pasport... what the heckk, and thy have todo it in a sarcastic way.. my god.. i'm going to germany.. damn u freaking idiot who work there for the rest of ur life!!!!
Apart from that just stayed home n watch FMA until 1pm when my mom took me to her clinic n fill all those holes in my teeth.. my god.. no more coke for me.. it's killing me... n yeah... the whole process lasted for an hour.. even aunty soo was terrified... lol....
So what am i going to do tomorrow... think will buy some dvds to burn the series for vincent n a new speaker for my bro.. the just walk around town .. no one cares about u
Post #120
I need more zzz... woke up at 11am also feel very sleepy... n i dunno what am i typing now coz i dun have anything nice to share....
Yeah watched da vinci code for the 2nd time...
Bull shit post
Life after zero internet
So i've been cut off from the internet in my hostel.. so what... .. yes i assure u internet is a fucking drug that makes u addicted to it...but who cares.. i'm sure i will survive through it...
On the mean time.. i'm just letting my hair down, unwind n relax back home...more post tomorrow
Update:
for that aussie die hard fan of mine.. dun worry... just endure these 3 months... i will be back in full force lol
