Saturday, April 29, 2006

Hmm i was chasing the wrong herring all the while lol.. but heck it's all over now. who cares. have a nice 3 breaks and i dun intend to do anything.... been to subang just now n found out some interesting fact... that shows me that everything come crashing down together n they do make sense now.. ahhahah.. can't wait for my roommates to return so i can share it with them ^^...
I think i'm biased.. everyone does. what's the meaning of biased y the way? das heist "vorurteil' auf deutsch. urteil is judgment and the vor is beforehand.. that means give judgement straight away..who asked him to be as sly as a fox all these while.. and y must i be there to see all his "dirty" work. it 's very funny that i won;t give judgement to him immediately. maybe next time i would wait a lil bit longer to catch this slippery herring in the sea.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

The world was such a better place when we were young..

There wasn't a sense of loneliness, there wasn't a tinge of sadness, there wasn't many troubles. Everything was peaceful then. Perhaps that's because we were peaceful toddlers who minded our own business. Attention was given to us, hope was given to us and material needs were provided. Now, we have a share of that responsibility. Peace and respon:)sibility goes together. To obtain peace, there should be responsibility, but not all responsibilities could be fulfilled and then comes a conflict and an end to peace. But at the end of the day, trying to fulfill more and more responsibility makes us stronger and more able to fulfill even more responsibility, eventually fulfilling all responsibilities and make ends meet. We would have served a greater good beyond our own and that is fulfillment. ;)

We all thrive on relationships, may it be partnerships, friendships etc. because it is vital in us. Our daily lives evolve around social interactions with others anywhere, anytime. To smile, to talk, to listen, to share, to laugh ... that is the special bond we all share between each other. Frankly speaking, I hate to be alone. But at times, although being self-contradicting, I long to be alone. Silence will reign when all alone. The initial feeling of uneasiness and queasiness drives me to the brink of insanity. The still atmosphere overpowers me. To add the effect, try turning off the lights and sitting in the dark. Suddenly, I get goosebumps and those weird chills up my spine. It feels like doomsday and I'm all alone by myself. But, when my brain starts working rationally, I relax. Chill, nothing is gonna happen and let's make the best out of it. I start to think. From what happened in the morning to what I did 10 years ago, anything from A to Z ... and those "what if" and "if only" starts popping out. And I let my imagination run free, had a laugh or two by myself, ahem. It makes me wish that we could reverse time and make dreams come true, maybe change the ways things turn out. Ooh, if only ... sigh. That's it. When all alone, the potpourri of emotions flood thru me. The feeling of loneliness or boredom, remorse or regret, happiness or gaiety, that sums up to the thrills of life and its up and downs. To me, it feels like a reflectional moment to ponder on every details and any thing that happened. This is life. Maybe I should try meditating when all alone next time. Blissful, ain't it ?

Currently having a major internet crisis as i'm writing this. duh! Had another stupid day again with BK around. She's just a major threat to this world. asked us to stay back at four, coz she wanna give back our paper but then, when i reached school at 4 she had already discuss till the end . The worse part is she showed her unleasant ugly face. so what, i had already informed her earlier that i dun have class at 2 , so that she can conduct it at 2, but then blah blah here blah blah there , she's just wanted it at 4.. what an old scum.
Arggg my connection is just sux.. although it's fast when no one is using bitcomet, but then what's the point when i can't connect to it. . . .Tomorrow is friday just hope that i could think out something that i can kill the time with .. . .sigh... stupid 3 days holidays .... no one around at all......

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

I want to be better than you. I want to be richer than you. I want to be more successful than you. Are that just all what we can think all the time? I really dunno. Maybe competition is the factor that drives us all the time. But simply too much competition is just... ermmm what should i say... not good for health? hahahaha. Just something to make vent to , since i'm in the one of the nation's best colleges where all of the "SMART PEOPLE" are alloctaed. The samrt here means that im not sure whether they are really smart with high IQ or they are just smart in memorizing books.This is the Malaysian phenomena. Where high grades means high achievements. haha... and nontheless, i have met with so many people that just cant stop compete and compare. plz. get a a life!!! and dun be secretive people, i know what good things you all are hiding for yourself:p

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Are you hardy because of your genes?

Call me bias, but I have had bad experiences with people who came from tough to thrive environments. Talk about Indians, they're one batch who come from a country which is overpopulated and under poverty. The Indians I know are willing to do anything to earn money, to thrive. The Chinese are also the same way, but the Chinese have been more successful in many sense, hence their more inward appearance but with an extremely entrepreneurial mind. Those who are more successful do not put out a front of trying so hard. However, most Indians I know of today still struggle within their community groups, even after so many generations outside of India. Call it genes? Maybe.

Monday, April 24, 2006

This is a newer build of the IE7 beta 2 . It was announced in conjunction with the new Windows system updates which now will show warnings for users using pirated Windows. Way to go for fighting against piracy. There's no much change that can be observed though the quick tab button will now only appear when there tabs are activated. Next to it is an arrow button which shows the list of the tabs. Well, can't wait for the release candidate to be out.:D


Human Nature Is Kind and Nice

The real human nature is kind and nice. This is expounded in all the buddhist sutras. Everyone in their most natural self has a beautiful soul. But it is the ego within the typical human mind that distorts views and gives self importance. That answers my questions to why many people react the way they do. There is always a balance between good and evil, the real side of humans, and the other side (the ego) of humans. Sometimes the balance is not found, sometimes it is.

There are also cases where, the real good to an individual is different form the agreed good of the world. You might be torn between which is now the real good. Everything that is justice is thought of as unjustice by some people. It's never agreed on. So there are actually three factors that balances good and evil - the natural human mind, the unnatural ego and the perverse view of the outside world (an effect of the many mix between the first two).

Sunday, April 23, 2006

How good is good enough? I just can't get this question out of my mind. ... Good and bad. What's the difference? You can say something is good becoz there's something bad to reflect it and vice versa.. but how are we going to judge between good and bad? Good is good , bad is bad becoz of the way it is? Everything is just relative to each other....

I dun call myself as a perfectionist due to the fact i just get whatever that is placed in front of done fast.. But the quality of the product for me is still acceptable. But recent job has brought the perfectionism out of me. Call it as a responsibility or whatever, as I'm carrying a burden to help someone to do something. and if the something is not properly done, i dunno what will happen to that someone. So have to sacrifice some of my time to get the job right, without any mistake. duh....

As for now, i have invited one of my friends to join this post to make it more lively.and yet he prefers not to reveal his identity ..lol... Frankly saying i really think that all his articles are very good except that he doesn't want outsider to read it, so now he's ready to step forward and share his articles with everyone else .lol

Friday, April 21, 2006


Here's a review of the upcoming IE7. Note: this is just a review on the beta build 20th March. I'm not a firefox fan actually, guess many open source software supporters outside would want to give me a hard slap on the face. Just face it i'm more like a Bill Gate's fan :p As you can see the lay out is totally different from the previous IE. IE 7 is to coordinate with the upcoming Windows Vista which is said to make security a priority. Though 1 added prominent feature is the phising filter, but this won't be very important for those who do not do online money transaction. Notice the back and foward buttons have already been changed to suit Vista style. Then the conventional "file, edit" bar is gone to give much space for the web page the user is viewing though one can still view it from the classic view. Tabbed browsing is added in this version to counter Firefox and after demands for the users but with one added feature "quick tab" where one can view all the tabs that are currently running. Beginner might find it hard to use at 1st, but like me after 2 months on the going, it's just as simple as b4. except the fact that the refresh and stop buttons are moved to the end of the address bar.The search bar are revamped, and users can set the prefered search engine that they like. I wouldn't say that this is the best browser of all time but i would suggest that Microsoft to create a better revolutionary web browser for the next generation of OS.

After hours of waiting for blogger.com to be available, i finally placed the amazon.com ads up on my site and got rid of the google ads which i signed up with the wrong name. Can't get paid as the cheques written are not meant for you .lol.. I dun find anything wrong with it.. giving my readers some good bargain, while me myself earn a bit from it...lol... i prefer amazon ads more than other site is becoz the appearance looks better than ads... and they offer quite a bargain for every item in their inventories. not to mentioned that they gave me discounts up to 33% for my Angel series DVD a few years ago.. * i luv Angel*

Saturday morning, somehow like i have got rid of my tendencies of waking up in the afternoon ,which myself detest it. Can'r figure out what happened last week whne i just slept n slept n slept.Duh !and for those who know me, i somehow lost the habit of contracting flu in cold weather. *hahahhahah* my immune system evolved? Slept at 2am the day b4 coz i have something to attend to, and woke up at 10am today.. 8 hours of sleep . But the big question is what should i do? Can't think of anything, since i'm lazy to go out , thx to the terrible public transport service. I can assure you all that i'm not that picky, but when it comes to pubic transport, malaysia is still lack behind other countries by leaps & bounds. Just a week ago when i was in mid valley , i saw some foreign tourists just went up and exit the commuter station after a long while waiting for the train to arrive. That would have gave some thoughts for the gov something to consider about. Not to mention of the neglected state of public toilets which cost 20 cent per entry. 1st world infrastructures but with a mentality of a ... Just let you all to guess. No point for me to say much here. Since this is a universal fact. Later would go out and buy the star to view what's happening around and get a good laugh of it.

Can't wait for me study leaves to start. Can't bear it anymore attending useless lessons, where i could just online with a peace of mind in my room. And yeah for the sudoku fans outside, i can solve the puzzle even without using my mind , just key in the figures and the comp will solve it for you !! lol

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Power and wealth: Men die for them, countries go to war for them, "friends" guess among themselves. Do they really mean everything? maybe it's the concept that the grass is greener at the other side of the fence that urge us to go for them. or mybe it's just the sense of controlling that drive us go crazy about them. That's something for everyone to ponder about.

Was damn busy, here got some english examinations, there's a bunch of chem,physics, blah blahblah and in the middle some German translation to do. And yeah, my study leave is near, *grinning* finally can get all the long hours of sleeping that i need. Dun need to face BF every Monday morning at 8, which i'm not fond of lol.

And yet tomorrow will be another boring day , with some stupid islamic studies exam in the afternoon. What a waste of good time to go out. Have to find a way to finish it fast then i'm free, free to do what.. i also dunno. This stupid place is really too much, refrain my freedom of mobility!!!

Yeee, cant wait for my new edifier speaker to arrive.. it's so pretty.. but i still dunno about the quality, since most of the pretty stuffs that i owned are useless..ask my friend lol.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Here is it. Finally after 2 years of ignorant i give in to blogging.. yeah you win, blogging is a way to go... lol .

Actually can't think of anything to write also since i have a routine life. INTEC surely suck out the vitality out of a young guy. lol... wait until the stubborn management hear about this, which i think won't in this lifetime.

And yeah i forgot that i have an english trial exam today, way to go, Jeff. So funny that i just ....*stunt* when they suddenly mentioned about it. But how do u prepare for a language exam? lol . So just let it be. and then after that still have Deutsch Abend which carries the meaning of German Evening with my EVER LOVING german lecturer Brigitte. lol... Since she already mentioned that it's obligartorisch (compulsary) this morning becoz our whole class skipped it a week ago and it was raining non stop, so i have to stay back n join it. and guess what.. watching movie.. At first i thought the title of the movie is "Goodbye Lenin" which i have watched a year ago, so i started to grin from ear to ear since i have the excuse of leaving,but later she changed it into "Dear Frankie" a scottish film i think with weird english accent. Duh, i think i can make a deduction that germans like film with deaf , mute or blind characters in their film to make it more sentimental.. lol

Thank god , the film ended early as the electricity was cut off.. and here i am writing this while reading Jeff Ooi's post at the same time. Guess what... MMU sux! hmm thinking of reading my Amazing Spider-Man comics v1.. still have around 300 issues to go b4 i catch up with the current issue.Try Spiderman : The Other (a 12 series of the reborn of spider-man). i would have given a big clap to MARVEL for producing a fine work of art. So where's my Civil War?